I was so depressed. In the most silent way you can ever imagined.
Sometimes you think you're not a good friend because your friends choose to be with other people instead of you. If your friends never appreciate your existence, then let them feel your absent. And soon you'll realize that you never need them anyway. You only feel like you do because you never try living apart from them. They may say that you've changed, you forgot where you belong but fuck it, where were they when you're struggling like shit to get through the hardship in your high school life anyway? But it's okay, I've met some really great people who never get bored trying to advice me in every possible way that I can't even describe in words. Even when I don't want to tell them what's wrong, they'll still try their best to cheer me up. Because that's what friends will do. They'll be there for you although a million stones is the distance between you and them, although you past through a leap year and not being able to be beside them, their existence always seems so alive.
To everybody, even "friends" who wasn't there for me when I was facing a hard time, don't ever fucking come to me and say that I can't do this and that just because you don't see the potential in me. You don't know what I've been through to get to where I am now. You don't have any idea about it. So shut the fuck up.