And yes, as a beginner, sometimes I feel quite shy wearing it especially in public places. I can't help but to feel insecure when random eyes were looking at me as if I was weird. And I even feel horrible walking through those girls who show out their skinny legs and sexy curves. What's worse is that sometimes I feel embarrassed for being the only one who covers my aurat while everybody else is dressing freely. Now I've realized that it wasn't me who should feel that way but it's vice versa. After all, I do this for the sake of my religion and covering your aurat was never an option if you're a Muslim. It's a must.
I never look down to people who haven't thought about covering their aurat, same goes to people who only wear their hijab when they go out and still display their hair in the social networks. It's enough for me to spread the dakwah within the people who's willing to change. Forcing other people to take this such huge commitment won't be easy. Plus, sincerity comes from one's heart, not by forcing it. But here's a piece of advice from yours truly, it's true that somehow every one of us wanted to wait till "the right time" for us to finally cover our aurat. I myself didn't cover mine as soon as I reached puberty. It takes time. But in the meantime, you can't just wait till "the right time" to hit you, you got to do some efforts as well. Ask yourselves, would you let your parents carry all your sins for not covering your aurat just because "you're not ready yet?". Think about it.
Of course, critics and hatred will never stop chasing you. There will be random people saying such stuff like "Pakai tudung tapi buat itu ini". All the entire time, I never bother to care about what these negative-minded people will think about me. I mean, if you really know your responsibility in covering your aurat, your responsibility as a women to take care of your social life, then screw what other people think, Allah knows best. Pakai sebab fashion? Pakai sebab ikhlas? Pakai sebab terpaksa? Look at yourself in the mirror and take some responsibility of it. Don't just wear it because you have to wear it. But wear it with pride.
"Feeling shy to wear the Islamic identity? By Allah you shall feel shy to enter Paradise." -@IslamSpeaks