It seems like people around my age are trying so hard to grow up, doing all those matured stuff old people do. I mean, you have your whole life to try all that. Why waste another day of your teenage life trying your best to act old when you can let time do it's job? It's funny how I see some teenagers posted their photos holding alcohol drinks and stuff thinking that they look perfectly up to date when the truth is, they look pathetic. Yes, people might tell me that it's their curiosity that make them try everything that everyone else is doing. But if you really think you're old enough to please your curiosity, you might as well know how to differentiate between the good and the bad things.
It's just that, sometimes I wish other teenagers can feel the way I feel right now. I feel free. And I don't mean free as if being able to hang out with my friends till late at night. I mean free from all the troubles, free from all the mess, free from trying so hard to be someone else when you know it's not the real you, free from everything your heart been aching from. It feels like I don't have anything else to bother now other than trying my best to make my parents feels proud of me. It feels like I've already achieve what I've always wanted; I finally got 1k followers on my blog, I finally make a shout-out for my 10,000th tweet, I fixed my 9 months of relationship with my boy, I finally clear the air between me and my mum, I feel closer to the Almighty, I finally found peace again.
"Give me everything I need,
but give it to me so completely,
that there will be no more wishing"